Sunday, February 13, 2005

48-hour days

i've noticed that i've been spending 48-hour days. i sleep every two days, so that i can work more and play more and live more.

but then, i think the 48-hour day system is wreaking havoc on MY system.

i tend to be restless, but when i sleep, i sleep deep... and straight for ten hours. ten hours that make up for the supposed-and-required 8-hour sleep for a 24-hour day. for a 48-hour day, that will translate to a supposed-and-required 16 hours of undisturbed sleep.
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tonight i was there. i saw his name. i was tempted to ask the tricycle drivers about his house.

i want to kill him. to pull out his intestines and strangle him to death with his own intestines. i want to gouge his eyes, peel the skin off his face, and cut off his genitals. i want to make him swallow his own genitals--putrid with his putrid blood, sinful with his mortal sins.

i have this deep-seated anger that cannot be vanquished with her words. he had violated her. i cannot accept that. i need to see his blood running through my hands, flowing through my fingers.

I WANT TO KILL HIM.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

if only i could erase all or even part of the anger eating on you, i would..

if only you'd let me..

ronald said...

thank you very much.

i will really love to allow you to erase all or even part of the anger eating me, but with you being anonymous...